Bad Moods!

Well hello there!

Do you ever get in one of those moods where you just want to curl up in your bed all day, listen to sad music or watch tv, and occasionally drift off to sleep even if you're not tired? That's me right now. Today's post was going to be all about my adventures that I took yesterday but I am just not feeling it, so you're going to have to deal with this.

Normally when I wake up, I'm extremely hungry so I make something to eat which normally activates my brain. But today it is just not happening. I even made myself a coffee to try and help but nope. There is nothing I can do to feel better.

I know I'm not the only person in the world that gets in these kinds of moods. But right now it just feels as though everyone else in the world is chipper and ready to take on the world while I'm under all of my blankets with my headphones in. I'm not really sure what this feeling is but a really big part of me just couldn't care less to figure it out.

I might put some energy into painting something or maybe finding new sad music to listen to. I might actually try and get dressed in something other than pajamas. I might try and communicate with someone besides my animals.

But I probably won't.

The reality about all of this is that it happens quite often to me. And it's not that I'm mad at anyone or that anything is upsetting me, it's just that I'm sad. There is no explanation.

You might be wondering how someone can be sad and just not know why. And that's good, it really is. But if you understand how, I feel bad for you because you've probably experienced this, whatever it may be.

I like to call it a funk to make it sound better than being unknowingly sad.

So right now, I'm in a funk. I'm not sure how long it's going to last for since it's kind of been resurfacing every couple of days, but I'm going to try my best to continue to post things everyday. I'd like to apologize now if I don't.

I'd also like to apologize if this makes you feel down or blue, but the truth is that no one is happy all of the time. The only difference between them and I is that I'm not willing to fake a smile and pretend that everything is okay when it's not. 

Yes, it's nice to be positive all of the time and to have a big smile plastered on your face. Yes, fueling this negative feeling with only more negative actions and thoughts will make it bigger. Yes, I should probably try and figure this all out so I can get better soon.

But just remember, it's okay not to be okay. And right now, I am not okay.

-MacKenzie

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