Living in my Mind

Well hello there!

Today I just kind of feel like writing for the sake of writing. With no real intent or purpose, only to figure it all out once I finish. 

There's been a lot going on in my head lately, both good and bad. I get really confused by it all sometimes, never fully understanding what's happening in there and outside of it. A lot of times I kind of forget to step back and take in the world around me because I'm so self-indulged in my thoughts. I'm just going to try and get it out now.

I've met quite a few new people lately and it's nice to get a change like that every once in a while. One of the first questions I've gotten from the majority of them is "are you in school?" Normally something like that wouldn't bother me but it kind of hit me all at once. People expect me, and others, to be in school as soon as we graduate from high school. It's expected of us to know, within 2-4 years (yes I say 2 because you are only allowed to start taking electives in high school in grade 11), what we want to spend the next 50 years of our lives doing. That's a really tough decision. People change their minds and opinions and wants and dreams - everything about themselves so often in their life, it's really hard to predict where all of these things will be in 10 years, let alone 50.

Don't get me wrong, people that have it all figured out are amazing. Good for them, honestly. But some of us don't. Some of us go through a year, or two, or even three, and then change our minds and either switch programs or drop out. And that's okay. It's not wrong to be confused or unsure, no matter what people might think. I'd rather somebody tell me they're trying to figure it all out than to say that they hate their program. What I'm trying to say is that it shouldn't be expected of someone between the ages of 18-22 to be in post secondary school. It should be fantastic if they are in school and okay if they aren't.

I don't really think there's any good transitions between topics here because they're all kind of different. Basically whatever comes to my mind is just going to be spewed out through my keyboard.

I've experienced a lot of judgment lately from a bunch of people about a bunch of different things and it really bothers me. I know I'm not going to be everyone's cup of tea, as a lot aren't going to be mine since I like coffee more. I don't judge someone who chooses to do something different than me because it's their choice. We are not one in the same, and I respect that enough to let them do their own thing without me criticizing them for it. Not everyone is the same as I in this aspect, obviously, since I get judged quite often on silly little things. I'm not talking about my tattoos, that's a whole other topic that I've already discussed, but I'm talking things like eating habits or how I spend my time or my money. Things that don't affect other people suddenly become the reason they are allowed to tell me why I am wrong. If you are a strict healthy person, be all means, eat how you want to eat, but don't look at me as though I am doing you wrong. If you spend all the free time you have with your friends, spend it that way, but don't think I'm anti-social for not doing the same. If you save all of your money and then splurge it on something, important or not important, go ahead, but don't tell me I shouldn't have gotten that drink at Starbucks because I could have put it toward something else. All I'm trying to get across here is that just because someone doesn't share the same viewpoints or habits or opinions as you does not mean they are wrong and it does not give you the right to judge them.

Yet again with these crappy transitions. Sorry.

Considering this is coming to you through the internet this is going to be really hypocritical. A lot of us spend time on our phones and on our computers too focused on what's happening at each and every moment rather than just living in it. We rely so much on technology to tell us things that there's not many of us, myself included, who know how to do certain things without it. I know for a fact that I rely so hard on technology to tell me where I'm going (as in directions) that if I had to do without it I would never leave my bed. 

Where I'm going with this is that we need to spend time away from all of these devices and just live. Go out and explore the world with your own eyes instead of pinning pictures of it to your travel board. Get in a car, invite a friend, turn the radio on and just drive. Find places you've never seen of or heard before. Just go. Go for a day. Go for a week. Go for a month. Just get out and go. Stop wasting your life refreshing Facebook every 2 seconds to see what that one person from high school who you hated but still wanted to keep tabs on which is why you still have them as a friend is feeling like today. We're all guilty of doing this so don't sit on your high horse, just admit that you spend a lot of time doing it, and change it up. A lot of good can come from spending a day in nature by yourself, completely unreachable.

Basically this post is just kind of a rant about a bunch of things that have been clogging up my mind. After writing all of this, I feel a lot better, a lot more free and clear. So I'm going to challenge you to do the same. Write whatever is on your mind- in the comments, on your blog, on a piece of paper- just do it. 

What do you need to say?

-MacKenzie

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